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for a moment, for a moment, I find hope
by ana (ugly_letters)
at August 17th, 2006 (01:28 pm)

I know I have not updated in ages.

I've been pretty low lately. I have fallen into the big black hole, again. I feel that it is easier to get wasted than actually trying.

I don't know, I just don't know anything. I want to get up again and try, but I'm so tired of everything. Was all that a lie? Was it just avoiding everything, not recovery?

Who was I kidding?

Just pretending, yes. A pretender, an actor, a liar. I hate myself. I hate myself.

I'm whining. I'm sorry.